Mommy Wants Vodka

…Or A Mail-Order Bride

The Kid Is All Right


Bobbing and weaving in time to the music in her head, she bounded over to me.

“Mama,” she smiled largely, the winning smile that I just know she’ll be using on her future dates. “I wanna watch more Tuff Puppy.”

“No Baby-Pants,” I laughed. “Not tonight. It’s bedtime.”

“Okay,” she stretched her smile as widely as she could. “Can we watch more Tuff Puppy on SUNDAY?”

“Sure,” I giggled at her inflection and emphasis. No one is gonna say no to this kid. “We can watch it on Sunday.”

“OKAY,” she broadcast to the whole house. “THANKS MAMA.”

She bobbed and wobbled off to get her diaper changed before bed.

I sat there, looking after her, bemused and amazed and more than a little bit teary.

It’s coming up on her third birthday. To think this tiny tot with an attitude the size of Texas was once the very same baby whose life I prayed for. Who’s head I wept into. Who’s tiny feet I once held onto like they were lifelines to a world in which no NICU’s, no PICU’s existed. It’s hard to reconcile that these are the same people.

Yet they are.

For her birthday this year, I will celebrate. I will buy a monster of a cake and we shall eat it, sharing it happily with anyone who can be bothered to brave the frigid January air. This year, we will celebrate.

And maybe, just maybe, I can let the ghosts of my past, who still haunt my present, be silent.

If only for a day.

posted under Cinnamon Girl
27 Comments to

“The Kid Is All Right”

  1. On December 2nd, 2011 at 12:38 pm Paula Says:

    I really don’t think she could possibly any cuter 🙂

  2. On December 2nd, 2011 at 12:40 pm Jeans Y Says:

    ::hides chips:: Love the diaper hanging out! Too cute!!

  3. On December 2nd, 2011 at 12:55 pm The Mommy Says:

    Amelia and my Little One share the same wardrobe! That’s her favorite outfit!

    She’s cute. And she’s awesome. AND? She’s OK. And so are you.

  4. On December 2nd, 2011 at 12:56 pm CathiC Says:

    Excuse me, but dancing is the ONLY way to eat chips. She is well on her way to taking over the world. We’ll be right here celebrating with you. If only there was a way you could send cake through the screen.

  5. On December 2nd, 2011 at 1:00 pm katrina Says:

    Aww Becky!! She is full of light and life!! That is what is important. Life is what it is……not what it was….Leave those ghosts in the past and dance in the joy that she is now.

  6. On December 2nd, 2011 at 1:20 pm Erin K Says:

    She cracks me up. LOVE the diaper hanging out. What a cutie.

  7. On December 2nd, 2011 at 1:25 pm Maria Says:

    What a lovely voice you have, Beckster!

    And that half pint is way cool, with the all fashionable jeans hanging off her butt 😀

  8. On December 2nd, 2011 at 1:43 pm Lori (aka Bubbe) Says:

    I’ll be celebrating with you in spirit too AB. Amelia is a darling! The Daver is going to want to keep that shotgun handy sooner than you can imagine!
    : )

  9. On December 2nd, 2011 at 1:51 pm Kathy Miranda Says:

    Love this. Thank you for sharing it with us. Dance Dance Dance Amelia!!!!

  10. On December 2nd, 2011 at 2:14 pm jtook Says:

    I love the gangsta style of her wardrobe choices.
    Dance for those chips, Mimi!

  11. On December 2nd, 2011 at 2:41 pm CycleNinja Says:

    That’s rehearsal dinner material, right there. Hilarious.

  12. On December 2nd, 2011 at 3:13 pm Melissa Says:

    Hah! She is too funny. And WAY ok.

  13. On December 2nd, 2011 at 4:16 pm Andrea Says:

    Eat cake all day and celebrate that fashion lady!

  14. On December 2nd, 2011 at 4:50 pm Chibi Jeebs Says:

    Princess Mimi is my hero. <3 Methinks Auntie Chibi will make a cake and celebrate in Canadia. 🙂

  15. On December 2nd, 2011 at 6:01 pm KaraB Says:

    Everyone should have suck an awesome chip dance! January babies are the most kickass babies of all. (Personal opinion of a fellow January baby!)

  16. On December 2nd, 2011 at 6:30 pm Teala Says:

    Oh, AB, she’s so adorable! She reminds me of my favorite aunt. Lots and lots and lots of love to y’all!

  17. On December 2nd, 2011 at 8:08 pm chrisinphx Says:

    Didn’t they pass a no sagging pants ordinance lately? She’d would shake her cute hiney at it cuz her mama is the Notorious Aunt BEX

  18. On December 2nd, 2011 at 9:48 pm Jennifer B Says:

    Who doesn’t want to dance with Dexter? And chips too??? All the more reason to dance. Apparently, Mimi doesn’t subscribe to the “pants are bullshit” theory. She’s more on the “shirts are bullshit” train. Gah, I love this little girl. Why is Chicago so far from Miami? I want to come to Mimi’s world birthday celebration. She and my little ladybug would be best buds for sure, or completely turn the world into zombies with their unbearable cuteness. One of those. AB, she is more than ok, she frickin rocks!!!! And so do you!

  19. On December 2nd, 2011 at 9:51 pm Pamela Says:

    So happy to see she’s turning into a happy, healthy little girl. Enjoy every minute of it AB!

  20. On December 2nd, 2011 at 10:46 pm kay Says:

    she looks so much like you! she’s gotta dance! working off those chips while she’s eating then 😀

  21. On December 3rd, 2011 at 1:56 am Miss Adventure Says:

    In the spirit of off-topic yet happy celebration, I bring you a macro of your nemesis. I don’t know if you’ve seen it, but it made me think of you the second I saw it!

  22. On December 3rd, 2011 at 2:40 am Zak Says:

    She is just gorgeous.

  23. On December 3rd, 2011 at 7:19 am Caroline Says:

    That child is destined for greatness. May she always embrace that light and spirit she possesses!

  24. On December 3rd, 2011 at 12:12 pm Vapid Vixen Says:

    I love the low riders over the diaper. She’s so trendy!!

  25. On December 3rd, 2011 at 9:19 pm Kristin Says:

    She is just gorgeous and it makes me so very happy when I remember all the worries you went through.

  26. On December 5th, 2011 at 7:46 am Catherine Says:

    I sometimes feel ridiculous for still being sad. I can let go of the past pretty easily, normally. But, like you, I often get those rushes of emotion tied to my time in the NICU. And I look at my children, happy, healthy, running around, getting into trouble….and I realize how truly lucky I am. Thank you for reminding me.

  27. On December 6th, 2011 at 9:54 am leanne Says:

    LOVE. The diaper hanging out, yes. The dancing, of course. But mostly… those beautiful words coming from her mouth. Blog posts like this should come with kleenex attached 🙂

Email will not be published

Website example

Your Comment:

My site was nominated for Best Humor Blog!
My site was nominated for Hottest Mommy Blogger!
Back By Popular Demand...